I'm not exactly sure how it happened, but somehow, I am now "following" my own blog! I can hardly wait to see what I put on there next! (rubbing my little paws together in anticipatory glee!!!)
Been working like a semi-fiend on the grant for the Youth Outreach thingy. I'm feeling relieved that it's almost all the way done. Now, here's the Q o' the day: I've been given a job, that's like gonna be 35-40 hours a week. AND benefits will be part of the package. Problem: 40 minute drive, Will cause me to all-but give up my place at the nonprofit, COMPLETELY, and we're SO close to actually seeing things happen...and IF the non-profit grant comes through, it would pay 1.5 x the offered 40 hour a week gig. AND the 40 hours are not even anything I'd actively have pursued. (I learned somewhere along the line that I have to ask myself if I can see myself working a job in a year, before I take it...a desk, a screen, and paperwork. Not what I'd envisioned. BUT....
Maybe I've just answered my own question. I guess I'll talk it over with the bosses and see what happens.
So, on that note, HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!!
Free from the mental obsession/physical compulsion THANK GOD!!!!!!
And most of all, FREE from death & the grave!!! WOOOOHHHOOOOOOO!! (That's Hoosier for, um, yahoo, I think.) :)
Saturday, July 4
Sunday, June 28
Just walking along, minding my own...
WOW stuff can happen in a flash. And sometimes it's even GOOD stuff!!! OK, I hadn't necessarily meant to write anything now, but here I am, and I have to tell you:
I'm working on a grant proposal for funding to get the HOMELESS YOUTH outreach started!!! YEAH! I'm psyched, to put it mildly. Been at work most of the day, on a SUNDAY, mind you, working on it. I've never written anything like a grant thing, before, so to say that I'm anxious would probably be correct.
Anything, we had meeting/planning committee--whatever they called it--#2 last Thursday, and our baby got a name: Displaced Youth Task Force, or DYTF for short. ("Task Force" makes me think of the way the military has named everything "Operation______" of late, like there is a task force for most everything, isn't there? But I guess if it suits the folks who are going to provide us with the MEANS to do what we must do, what do I care what they want to call it?)
So, I've been busily writing a Cover Sheet for the grant request, and also playing around with a logo.
It keeps coming into my little mind how the abbreviated name (DYTF) is kind of close to "WTF", as in "WHY the f*ck?" So, how can I incorporate WTF/WHY-TF into the name?
Things that entertain my little flighty mind...
I'm working on a grant proposal for funding to get the HOMELESS YOUTH outreach started!!! YEAH! I'm psyched, to put it mildly. Been at work most of the day, on a SUNDAY, mind you, working on it. I've never written anything like a grant thing, before, so to say that I'm anxious would probably be correct.
Anything, we had meeting/planning committee--whatever they called it--#2 last Thursday, and our baby got a name: Displaced Youth Task Force, or DYTF for short. ("Task Force" makes me think of the way the military has named everything "Operation______" of late, like there is a task force for most everything, isn't there? But I guess if it suits the folks who are going to provide us with the MEANS to do what we must do, what do I care what they want to call it?)
So, I've been busily writing a Cover Sheet for the grant request, and also playing around with a logo.
It keeps coming into my little mind how the abbreviated name (DYTF) is kind of close to "WTF", as in "WHY the f*ck?" So, how can I incorporate WTF/WHY-TF into the name?
Things that entertain my little flighty mind...
Thursday, June 25
...Heart full of SONshine...
I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.
Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.
No.
Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A higher place.
I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.
Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me.
Do anything you can to control me.
Oh, no.
Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
There's a place that I go,
But nobody knows.
Where the rivers flow,
And I call it home.
And there's no more lies.
In the darkness, there's light.
And nobody cries.
There's only butterflies.
Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A higher place.
The sun is on my side.
Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky.
I know I'll be all right.
The sun is on my side.
Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky.
I know I'll be all right.
P.S. Click on the post title for the video. It's great.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.
Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.
No.
Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A higher place.
I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.
Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me.
Do anything you can to control me.
Oh, no.
Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
There's a place that I go,
But nobody knows.
Where the rivers flow,
And I call it home.
And there's no more lies.
In the darkness, there's light.
And nobody cries.
There's only butterflies.
Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A higher place.
The sun is on my side.
Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky.
I know I'll be all right.
The sun is on my side.
Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky.
I know I'll be all right.
P.S. Click on the post title for the video. It's great.
Sunday, June 14
Good day. Thank you God.
I guess I'm being too controversial, or something. Or, more likely, it has NOTHING to do with me; nonetheless, I was hurt to see that someone who had been "following" my blog (there aren't many of you to be SURE! lol) is no longer. IF it is about something I've posted, I'm sorry if I've offended. I try to be sure that my personal beliefs are posted carefully, and the things that are NOT, are clearly submitted as such. Thank GOD it's a (relatively) free country. More to come....
Be blessed today, and by ALL means, be a BLESSING. :) You are to Him.
Be blessed today, and by ALL means, be a BLESSING. :) You are to Him.
Thursday, June 11
So, maybe it IS just me.
This morning I went to a meeting and the topic was FEELINGS. As I entered, an addict with a little over 30 days was talking about the anger he feels toward some of his so-workers and their behavior. I was taken aback at the vehemence in his tone, partially because it's been a while since I've been in the presence of someone so clearly ANGRY. I thought to myself, once I'd confirmed what the topic was, that God's sense of humor was showing again. :)
See, I've been wrestling with strong emotions for the last...well, quite a while, and this last couple of weeks, since stopping the anti-depression prescription in favor of a supplement/herbal thing, I have been REALLY feeling what I can only describe as sadness. Apparently, cos there have been a lot of tears. I can tell you that it's been a rather uncomfortable thing, feeling the tears well up in my eyes almost instantaneously; (and several times a day, sometimes) I've been allowing them, knowing that at this point, I'd better just suck it up and LET myself CRY. I hate for other people to know I'm sad. Not sure exactly why, except that I do know that as a child I was directed regularly not to cry. ("...or I'll give you something ELSE to cry about.")
I also started the EMDR therapy, & I feel like a part of my emotional turmoil has been due to the apprehension and dread of coming up to the time to get to the PTSD start dragging out all those old emotions, and I don't WANNA. I know it's the right thing to do, and I'm GLAD that I'm getting into the solution, and finally working on getting PAST the skeletons that make my closets unbearable.
Too tired to write any more. My Sweetheart is coming in on a bus tomorrow, so this may be the last post for a little while.
I hope your summer is everything you'd like it to be.
See, I've been wrestling with strong emotions for the last...well, quite a while, and this last couple of weeks, since stopping the anti-depression prescription in favor of a supplement/herbal thing, I have been REALLY feeling what I can only describe as sadness. Apparently, cos there have been a lot of tears. I can tell you that it's been a rather uncomfortable thing, feeling the tears well up in my eyes almost instantaneously; (and several times a day, sometimes) I've been allowing them, knowing that at this point, I'd better just suck it up and LET myself CRY. I hate for other people to know I'm sad. Not sure exactly why, except that I do know that as a child I was directed regularly not to cry. ("...or I'll give you something ELSE to cry about.")
I also started the EMDR therapy, & I feel like a part of my emotional turmoil has been due to the apprehension and dread of coming up to the time to get to the PTSD start dragging out all those old emotions, and I don't WANNA. I know it's the right thing to do, and I'm GLAD that I'm getting into the solution, and finally working on getting PAST the skeletons that make my closets unbearable.
Too tired to write any more. My Sweetheart is coming in on a bus tomorrow, so this may be the last post for a little while.
I hope your summer is everything you'd like it to be.
Sunday, June 7
Friday, June 5
I just can't comprehend...
Greetings, friends and countrymen. I just finished reading a really disturbing article which made a very convincing argument for the idea that the U.S. quickly becoming a Marxist nation. Anyone who knows me, knows that politics are about the least interesting thing in the universe to me. At the same time, personal and national freedom are fairly critical to my life. This is why, I'm posting the article for your consideration. I know God is in charge, ultimately. I also know that He WILL give us enough rope to hang ourselves with, if that's really what we are determined to do.
This article is for your information. Please read.
Note from Don Wildmon (http://www.afa.net): For years I have refused to use words such as Marxism, socialism or similar words when describing our current situation. However, it is time to call a spade a spade, regardless of how those who oppose us label us. Rome is burning.
The article below was written by Stanislav Mishin, a blogger and columnist for the Russian newspaper Pravda.
American capitalism gone with a whimper . . . . .
It must be said, that like the breaking of a great dam, the American decent into Marxism is happening with breath taking speed, against the back drop of a passive, hapless sheeple, excuse me dear reader, I meant people.
True, the situation has been well prepared on and off for the past century, especially the past twenty years. The initial testing grounds was conducted upon our Holy Russia and a bloody test it was. But we Russians would not just roll over and give up our freedoms and our souls, no matter how much money Wall Street poured into the fists of the Marxists.
Those lessons were taken and used to properly prepare the American populace for the surrender of their freedoms and souls, to the whims of their elites and betters.
First, the population was dumbed down through a politicized and substandard education system based on pop culture, rather than the classics. Americans know more about their favorite TV dramas than the drama in DC that directly affects their lives. They care more for their "right" to choke down a McDonalds burger or a BurgerKing burger than for their constitutional rights. Then they turn around and lecture us (Russia) about our rights and about our "democracy". Pride blinds the foolish.
Then their faith in God was destroyed, until their churches, all tens of thousands of different "branches and denominations" were for the most part little more then Sunday circuses and their televangelists and top protestant mega preachers were more then happy to sell out their souls and flocks to be on the "winning" side of one pseudo Marxist politician or another. Their flocks may complain, but when explained that they would be on the "winning" side, their flocks were ever so quick to reject Christ in hopes for earthly power. Even our Holy Orthodox (Russian Orthodox) churches are scandalously liberalized in America.
The final collapse has come with the election of Barack Obama. His speed in the past three months has been truly impressive. His spending and money printing has been a record setting, not just in America's short history but in the world. If this keeps up for more than another year, and there is no sign that it will not, America at best will resemble the Wiemar Republic and at worst Zimbabwe.
These past two weeks have been the most breath taking of all. First came the announcement of a planned redesign of the American Byzantine tax system, by the very thieves who used it to bankroll their thefts, loses and swindles of hundreds of billions of dollars. These make our Russian oligarchs look little more than ordinary street thugs, in comparison. Yes, the Americans have beat our own thieves in the shear volumes. Should we congratulate them?
These men, of course, are not an elected panel but made up of appointees picked from the very financial oligarchs and their henchmen who are now gorging themselves on trillions of American dollars, in one bailout after another. They are also usurping the rights, duties and powers of the American congress (parliament). Again, congress has put up little more then a whimper to their masters.
Then came Barack Obama's command that GM's (General Motor) president step down from leadership of his company. That is correct, dear reader, in the land of "pure" free markets, the American president now has the power, the self given power, to fire CEOs and we can assume other employees of private companies, at will. Come hither, go dither, the centurion commands his minions.
So it should be no surprise that the American president has followed this up with a "bold" move of declaring that he and another group of unelected, chosen stooges will now redesign the entire automotive industry and will even be the guarantee of automobile policies. I am sure that if given the chance, they would happily try and redesign it for the whole of the world, too. Prime Minister Putin, less then two months ago, warned Obama and UK's Blair, not to follow the path to Marxism, it only leads to disaster. Apparently, even though we suffered 70 years of this Western sponsored horror show, we know nothing, as foolish, drunken Russians, so let our "wise" Anglo-Saxon fools find out the folly of their own pride.
Again, the American public has taken this with barely a whimper...but a "freeman" whimper.
So, should it be any surprise to discover that the Democratically controlled Congress of America is working on passing a new regulation that would give the American Treasury department the power to set "fair" maximum salaries, evaluate performance and control how private companies give out pay raises and bonuses? Senator Barney Franks, a social pervert basking in his homosexuality (of course, amongst the modern, enlightened American societal norm, as well as that of the general West, homosexuality is not only not a looked down upon life choice, but is often praised as a virtue) and his Marxist enlightenment, has led this effort. He stresses that this only affects companies that receive government monies, but it is retroactive and taken to a logical extreme, this would include any company or industry that has ever received a tax break or incentive.
The Russian owners of American companies and industries should look thoughtfully at this and the option of closing their facilities down and fleeing the land of the Red as fast as possible. In other words, divest while there is still value left.
The proud American will go down into his slavery with out a fight, beating his chest and proclaiming to the world, how free he really is. The world will only snicker.
Stanislav Mishin
So, what think ye? I would love to get your thoughts on this. I am sorry that I'm not more educated in political matters, at the moment. But my mind keeps going back to my dream of getting a place in the woods and building an underground home, off the grid, and seeing what the world is going to do... I had intended to write something that didn't echo the way I've been feeling recently, but alas, that's not how it turned out. I will write something more positive soon, I promise. Maybe even after I finish reading that batch of email.
Oh! Here's something!! I actually got a "C" for the Internship. THANK GOD. I've been staring at an "I" where the grade goes for the last couple of weeks, hoping against hope that she didn't give me an Incomplete. Now, there's something less of a bummer, right? If I'd not been wrestling with the A.D.D. and that whole mes, I feel certain that I'd have gotten a better grade. But, what can I do about it?
AND, on a more personal note, I'm going after a new career--FULLTIME would be good, and voraciously (SP?!) tearing thru the ads for a different living space. I think coming up on 4 years in the midst of "Crack Central" has GOT to be enough "dues paying" don't you think?? So.
I apologize for not being all sugar and spice today. I'm giving Sam-E a shot, and waiting for the effects to catch up. Not feeling emotionally well. But this too shall pass.
Thank You Jesus, for another day, tomorrow.
This article is for your information. Please read.
Note from Don Wildmon (http://www.afa.net): For years I have refused to use words such as Marxism, socialism or similar words when describing our current situation. However, it is time to call a spade a spade, regardless of how those who oppose us label us. Rome is burning.
The article below was written by Stanislav Mishin, a blogger and columnist for the Russian newspaper Pravda.
American capitalism gone with a whimper . . . . .
It must be said, that like the breaking of a great dam, the American decent into Marxism is happening with breath taking speed, against the back drop of a passive, hapless sheeple, excuse me dear reader, I meant people.
True, the situation has been well prepared on and off for the past century, especially the past twenty years. The initial testing grounds was conducted upon our Holy Russia and a bloody test it was. But we Russians would not just roll over and give up our freedoms and our souls, no matter how much money Wall Street poured into the fists of the Marxists.
Those lessons were taken and used to properly prepare the American populace for the surrender of their freedoms and souls, to the whims of their elites and betters.
First, the population was dumbed down through a politicized and substandard education system based on pop culture, rather than the classics. Americans know more about their favorite TV dramas than the drama in DC that directly affects their lives. They care more for their "right" to choke down a McDonalds burger or a BurgerKing burger than for their constitutional rights. Then they turn around and lecture us (Russia) about our rights and about our "democracy". Pride blinds the foolish.
Then their faith in God was destroyed, until their churches, all tens of thousands of different "branches and denominations" were for the most part little more then Sunday circuses and their televangelists and top protestant mega preachers were more then happy to sell out their souls and flocks to be on the "winning" side of one pseudo Marxist politician or another. Their flocks may complain, but when explained that they would be on the "winning" side, their flocks were ever so quick to reject Christ in hopes for earthly power. Even our Holy Orthodox (Russian Orthodox) churches are scandalously liberalized in America.
The final collapse has come with the election of Barack Obama. His speed in the past three months has been truly impressive. His spending and money printing has been a record setting, not just in America's short history but in the world. If this keeps up for more than another year, and there is no sign that it will not, America at best will resemble the Wiemar Republic and at worst Zimbabwe.
These past two weeks have been the most breath taking of all. First came the announcement of a planned redesign of the American Byzantine tax system, by the very thieves who used it to bankroll their thefts, loses and swindles of hundreds of billions of dollars. These make our Russian oligarchs look little more than ordinary street thugs, in comparison. Yes, the Americans have beat our own thieves in the shear volumes. Should we congratulate them?
These men, of course, are not an elected panel but made up of appointees picked from the very financial oligarchs and their henchmen who are now gorging themselves on trillions of American dollars, in one bailout after another. They are also usurping the rights, duties and powers of the American congress (parliament). Again, congress has put up little more then a whimper to their masters.
Then came Barack Obama's command that GM's (General Motor) president step down from leadership of his company. That is correct, dear reader, in the land of "pure" free markets, the American president now has the power, the self given power, to fire CEOs and we can assume other employees of private companies, at will. Come hither, go dither, the centurion commands his minions.
So it should be no surprise that the American president has followed this up with a "bold" move of declaring that he and another group of unelected, chosen stooges will now redesign the entire automotive industry and will even be the guarantee of automobile policies. I am sure that if given the chance, they would happily try and redesign it for the whole of the world, too. Prime Minister Putin, less then two months ago, warned Obama and UK's Blair, not to follow the path to Marxism, it only leads to disaster. Apparently, even though we suffered 70 years of this Western sponsored horror show, we know nothing, as foolish, drunken Russians, so let our "wise" Anglo-Saxon fools find out the folly of their own pride.
Again, the American public has taken this with barely a whimper...but a "freeman" whimper.
So, should it be any surprise to discover that the Democratically controlled Congress of America is working on passing a new regulation that would give the American Treasury department the power to set "fair" maximum salaries, evaluate performance and control how private companies give out pay raises and bonuses? Senator Barney Franks, a social pervert basking in his homosexuality (of course, amongst the modern, enlightened American societal norm, as well as that of the general West, homosexuality is not only not a looked down upon life choice, but is often praised as a virtue) and his Marxist enlightenment, has led this effort. He stresses that this only affects companies that receive government monies, but it is retroactive and taken to a logical extreme, this would include any company or industry that has ever received a tax break or incentive.
The Russian owners of American companies and industries should look thoughtfully at this and the option of closing their facilities down and fleeing the land of the Red as fast as possible. In other words, divest while there is still value left.
The proud American will go down into his slavery with out a fight, beating his chest and proclaiming to the world, how free he really is. The world will only snicker.
Stanislav Mishin
So, what think ye? I would love to get your thoughts on this. I am sorry that I'm not more educated in political matters, at the moment. But my mind keeps going back to my dream of getting a place in the woods and building an underground home, off the grid, and seeing what the world is going to do... I had intended to write something that didn't echo the way I've been feeling recently, but alas, that's not how it turned out. I will write something more positive soon, I promise. Maybe even after I finish reading that batch of email.
Oh! Here's something!! I actually got a "C" for the Internship. THANK GOD. I've been staring at an "I" where the grade goes for the last couple of weeks, hoping against hope that she didn't give me an Incomplete. Now, there's something less of a bummer, right? If I'd not been wrestling with the A.D.D. and that whole mes, I feel certain that I'd have gotten a better grade. But, what can I do about it?
AND, on a more personal note, I'm going after a new career--FULLTIME would be good, and voraciously (SP?!) tearing thru the ads for a different living space. I think coming up on 4 years in the midst of "Crack Central" has GOT to be enough "dues paying" don't you think?? So.
I apologize for not being all sugar and spice today. I'm giving Sam-E a shot, and waiting for the effects to catch up. Not feeling emotionally well. But this too shall pass.
Thank You Jesus, for another day, tomorrow.
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